This was my first time , it was so cold but I had to keep going my hands felt so numb almost as if I didn’t have any. My eyes felt frozen open as if I’ve seen something so amazing and yet it hurt so bad . But no matter what I had to keep going , it didn’t help me but I had to , I felt like if I didn’t do this I would just be that lazy person everyone says I am at home . I would just be that person everyone sees and yet pretends I don’t exist . I had no choice but to do this , I had to prove everyone wrong , I had to do this so everyone can see how great I can be , I had to do this for my grandmother up in the heaven’s with the angels looking down at me , I had to make someone proud. Most importantly I had to stop letting people convince me that I am all those negative things they say I am , i had to do this .
